He is not there on the bed!!! She got shocked and head to the front door just to see if anyone came in and took him away.

The a vision came to her mind, remembering that her husband came back and left this morning. She suspected that the husband may have taken

the 1 year old boy somewhere. She got even more worried, not knowing what will happen to the son. She kept waiting and waiting for the homecoming of her Husband to answer all the question she had on mind. She could not imagine what will happen to the son.

 

2 days later, HE came back to the house. As usual taking off his shirt and throwing it a side and lay down on the sofa, pretending nothing has happened. The mother went slowly and asked him. "Where have you taken my Son??" she said. He pretend not listening and continues his nap. The mother got angry and she shouted at him again and again since he is not answering. Then he stood up and look directly in to her eyes saying this words: What is the big deal? Why are u shouting early in the morning?? Have i not been enough problems in my life that you want to nag me even more?? What do u wan me to answer you?? Should i be sorry for everything? If not .. please move out of my way as im heading to the room and sleep. So he went passing side of the mother and then She shouted directly to him saying "Where is my Son? Where have u taken him??". The father was near the Prayer Desk, takes the ash try of the incense and threw directly to her face and ask her to keep her mouth shut as he will kill her if she asks again about this matter.

 

Her face bleed and she was helpless, with the current situation she has no one to turn too. She felt that her life were totally doomed. Why is this happening to her she wondered? All she wants is happiness. Where are all those happy days before marriage?? Where are all the promises that is given and said? Where has the real husband she use to know? Who is that person who just threw things right on her face? Is that love? Is that commitment from a Husband?

 

Late at night, when Her husband went out to gamble like usual, she went to the kitchen and yet to find all food and groceries are no longer being refilled. Looking back on her pocket, she has less than RM10 and she has to feed a son and a daughter plus together with herself. The husband no longer support the family in finance because all that is left were used to gamble and liquor. A Husband that never thought or puts the priority on family first leaving them as like chinese idioms may say "Hungry Dies the Wife, Locked up in Smelly House".

 

Therefore one night she planned to do something cuz she know that, they cant survive being like this forever.......... (TBC)

This is a story of a boy, who was born in the family where Father never been existed in his story line. All he knew about this father that everyone was mentioning was a person who is bad, and also care free person. The mother use to say, dont be like your father! and yet he didnt knew how his father was. He questioned himself asking the question over and over again. Who shall i be? How should i be not like my father, when i dont even know who he is and how bad he is?

 

May the one who is called my FATHER please step out? he kept pondering! yet answers and questions still plays in his mind. What is his wrong to be born into a family who has NO FATHER?? i still remember that while he was in primary school he kept asking his friends how is a FATHER look like? The answer that his friends gave were totally different from what his own mother has said. They were saying a Father is someone who cares for you, look after you and also set example for you so that you may become like him one day or even better.

 

He was deeply confused by what people said around him as his mother will describe his Father as someone who will beat or hurt the family members, drinks and gambles all the money that is use to support the family and also living in a world of running around hiding from Ah Long's and debtors. His mother told him that, she still remembers one day she found her self being locked up in a house while the father is not around and the Ah Long's set fire to the house and yet by grace she was saved by the neighbour.

 

She was MAD about it but nothing she can do due to the fierceness she describes about the FATHER. What she can do is to keep her self apart and cry every night. She lives a life of worries and wonders, where hope will be the only thing she would hold on to continue to the next day. One night as she was sleeping. She over heard that the HUSBAND came back as the sound of the gate were opened. She was worry and do not know what will happen next, she keeps her hand held tight while lying on the bed with her body shaking because of fear.Hoping that the husband would not beat her up or do anything which may hurt her. It was different this time, the husband left after a while and she was relieved and continues her sleep till morning. Her husband will only come back to house once in a while, as he will be gambling and drinking out somewhere.

 

The morning came and she woke up like normal, sending her daughter who was only 6 yrs old to school. Investing on her, hoping that one day she and her sons will be educated yet live a life better than what they are in now. The time has come to feed both son age 1year  and the other 1 month. Priority is given to the 1 month old child as he will need more attention and cares due to early birth. So she gives him milk and a bath. Later when she was about to handle the first son who was 1 year old, she was surprise to see that..................

Sometimes it is funny to know that our problems turn out to be a test for us! We may be wondering why this things happen to us?

But instead of that we should be thankful for it has happen and not because it happen, WHY? because that is when we will learn who we should be.

I tend to find my self in problems quite some time. But till now after reading some words from the Bible. it happen that this situation will let us over come our life. Now i understand, because at times i really did questioned GOD why all of this happening to me>??? but then, now i find my self being more patience in a lot of things. Not like last time where i use to tremble even before things happen.

 

I know God is shaping me for who i am. I did compare my self with others so much that most of the time i find my self the worst of the worst.

This is because i came from a family background which is not complete, and complicated. Yet luckily God found me! I was thankful and praise to be to the Lord for what he has done. Now when looking into comparrision i dont compare much. It good to compare, but make sure it s a clean compare but not to the extend who is the best and worst. I use to compare who is more intelligent than me. Knowing that i have the knowledge but it should not be boasted out to people, or by letting them shamre. I also learned that we should encourage those who are weak, and not by giving a worst compliment to further hurt or discourage others. Like the some say, if nothing is good coming out from your mouth, it is always better to keep your mouth shut. I know sometimes it may be the truth and u may think it is alright to juz voice it out .. but please consider others as well when u comment or compliment. Think of others! hahaha

 

There are some may think, that this is not their problem. But trust me! One day u will understand it more than what im explaning now. Do u know that a simple word of encouragement could be better than something which is not! So if the next time u find yourself not complimenting of saying something good ... juz keep your mouth shut ... as the song sings "Silence is Golden"

 

Im saying this because this is what i see today.